Guess who literally forgot that she had a travel blog for a solid seven months?? This gal.
Since the new year rolled around, I've been incredibly stressed, but I've also been learning how to use my dad's really expensive and nice camera. It seems like the more I'm forced to stay in school, the more I want to get up and leave, ha ha.
In some more exciting news, I've signed on to take a trip to China in the spring of 2016 with EFTours and some of my closest friends! I'm already on the payment plan and it's totally draining me oh god ha ha. It's a trip around Xi'an, Beijing, and Shanghai for a week–and next year could honestly not come sooner. I'll be a senior then, so it'll be my sort of last hurrah as a high school student–and hopefully one of my last big events before I take my gap year of world travel before settling in to university life.
A lot of people seem to get the impression that I have my entire life planned out and ready to go, but honestly, I have no idea what's going on. I'm petrified that I won't get into my college of choice, that I won't like living in the city, that I won't be able to afford tuition... And what's worse, I have no idea what I want to major in. So many of my friends struggle to find something they're passionate about, but I have the opposite problem. I'm flaky and easily distracted, always trying to decide between my many hobbies to settle on something that I could actually do for the rest of my life. For years, I wanted to be a novelist who didn't stay rooted to any single place and just traveled and submitted manuscripts as she pleased... But now I'm slowly starting to realize how unrealistic that is, and it's a draw between zoology, fashion design, graphic design, animation, business, international relations... My crippling indecisiveness just worsens under pressure, which is why I'm relying so heavily on this gap year of mine. I'll be doing 6 months of volunteer work and 6 months of just travel, and I'm at that point where I feel dangerously done with school and just want to do that, ha ha.
This year feels so much like a filler for me. I'm tired of everything related to my hometown and just want to up and leave, but I think I've been more or less trained to be submissive and obedient. It's frustrating!
On another note, I'm going to try to make more consistent blog entries here, so that I have some material to fill in the blank spaces between my adventures. Have a lovely spring, everyone!
